Summoning Up The Enthusiasm

Is it because it is Monday, or is it because I'm a procrastinator? I know that I should be getting myself into a comfortable position with my book, the course DVD, my notes, and a notebook so that I can start working on the ECA for my OU course. I know that I should be doing that, but summoning the enthusiasm is proving to be quite a problem.

The course isn't difficult, it's the easiest that I have studied with the OU, and yet I am having so many problems. It's not that it isn't interesting; it's a psychology course, so is about how we think and act. I've been sitting here trying to determine why I am finding it so difficult, and the answer is astoundingly simple. It is the way that the marking is structured that is causing me concern. This is the only course that I have studied where you are required to meet learning outcomes in order pass the course. So I don't have to get a specific percentage in each of the assignments, I have to achieve a certain number of outcomes.

For some reason this is making me even less confident in my abilities, and yet the point of doing the course in the first place was to try to regain some self-confidence. I suppose I will just have to do my best and hope that by doing that I am able to meet the learning outcomes to enable me to pass the course. The course is ony worth 10 points and I don't intend to use it towards a particular qualification, but passing it will help me regain some of the confidence that I have lost over the last couple of years. I need to do that if I am going to try to start living a normal life again.