Tuesday, 22 July 2008

Perhaps I Spoke Too Soon, Or Maybe Not

Yesterday I wrote and said that I was feeling better; well I am a lot better than I have been but things aren't perfect yet. I found that out when I decided that I had better go to bed and couldn't get to sleep. Reading didn't help, I couldn't concentrate on the page and kept reading the same couple of lines over and over again. I'm not a lover of hot milky drinks and I didn't have any milk anyway. And a warm bath was out as I'd had one of those already.

Midnight came and went, so did 1 o'clock, then 2 o'clock. I began to think that this might be one of those nights where I got no sleep at all. But at about 2.30 this morning, my eyelids finally began to droop and I fell asleep with no bother at all.

When my depression is at its worst, I wake in the early hours of the morning, any time between 3 and 4 o'clock is usual, and then I find that I cannot get back to sleep irregardless of what time I fall asleep. Today was different though. Today I slept right the way through until 7.30, so although I am tired, I have had a reasonable amount of sleep and I don't feel like crawling further under the duvet so that the world can't get at me.

This is just as well because I have a social gathering to go to this evening, and I need to get to bed early tonight as I have to rise early tomorrow morning. Tomorrow I have a hospital appointment at 8.30 in the morning, so that means that I will have to rise very early to get myself ready to catch a bus. Tomorrow morning I will have to be leaving the house at the same time that I was leaving my bed today.

I had better make sure that I put the alarm on tonight.

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