Friday, 23 July 2010

Is It Blogger's Block Or Too Much Whirling About In My Mind?

I've managed to make it to the library again so that I can write something for the blog, though having now sat down to do so I find myself struggling for something to say. This is a somewhat unusual situation for me to be in because while I find it very difficult to talk to people, I usually have very little problem writing about whatever springs to mind.

I have been feeling really under the weather for the last few days. I have been very tearful much of the time, found it difficult to settle to do anything for longer than five minutes, and been in excruciating pain from the surgery that I underwent last week. the pain has been so intense that there have been times when it has brought me out in a cold sweat and caused overwhelming bouts of nausea.

And sleep has been difficult to come by even though the medication that I take at night often leaves me drowsy throughout much of the following day. For the last two days I have been eating breakfast and then going back to bed to try to catch up a little on what I seem to be missing at night, but I don't want to do this too much because I am afraid that I will get back to the cycle of nocturnal living that I was going through a few months ago.

While all of this is happening my mind seems to be constantly churning over stuff, much of it things that I don't want to think about at the moment. I know that I can't put everything off for ever, but I need to deal with things in manageable portions so that I don't become so overloaded that I implode again.

So, it's a strange post from me, but hopefully having actually sat down to write it has helped in some small way. I shall be back again tomorrow when I will hopefully have something more meaningful to say.

3 comments:

NOS said...

I'm so sorry you're not feeling well. I'm crossing my fingers that all of your pain subsides very soon.

Wishing you well,
NOS

Seaneen said...

I hope things improve. x

steph said...

I'm sure what you're going through at the moment in terms of temporary accommodation, must be hugely unsettling for you.

Add to this, the fact that you've just been through some surgery which has left you in significant discomfort, I'm not in the least bit surprised to find you're feeling under the weather.

Be gentle on yourself! When you get into your new accommodation, things should settle down into a more usual daily pattern.

If the pain that you're experiencing is gradually getting worse not better, you should definitely seek medical attention.

I'm sending lots of soothing vibes your way!