Wednesday 10 February 2010

Lost For Words

I finally managed to get some sleep and I didn't resort to sleep medication either. By 10pm last night I could hardly keep my eyes open so I went to bed, laid my head on the pillow and was asleep almost immediately. I woke at just before 7am, made myself some breakfast and went back to bed again and slept some more. I now don't feel so exhausted but I still feel low.

I have been trying to write the next instalment of Tackling the Mental Health Minefield this afternoon. I started to write it 11 days ago and it is still only half finished. I know what I want to say, but I can't find the words. At work I was renowned for my writing ability. I could write clearly, concisely and articulately. Now it is as much as I can do to string two sentences together. I have lost the ability to concentrate; to focus on the thing that needs to be done.

Although I am still trying to complete that post, I felt the need to write something for the blog. It lets people know that I am still alive. I know that you don't know me personally, but the fact that you read what I write and bother to comment shows that you care. That means a lot to me.

I shall try to write some more of the other post this evening. Maybe I will finish it and publish it tonight, but I think that it is more likely that it will be tomorrow. In the meantime you'll just have to make do with this meagre morsel.

4 comments:

BenefitScroungingScum said...

I totally understand the losing words thing. They're all there somewhere, just only come out to play when it suits them not me!
Glad you've had a good night's sleep, hope things carry on looking up now the days are lengthening.
BG Xx

alhi said...

I too know what you mean. With me it's been keeping my words to myself because I need them to get through the working day.

Achelois said...

I either write nothing or too much! Thank you for posting.

cb said...

Sleep is good. Thanks for the update. It's strange isn't it that you talk about not knowing each other personally, which is, of course, true, but it is still a connection that we can feel from following your thoughts over a period of time.