Tuesday, 25 November 2008
Somedays I Wonder ...
... whether anything good will ever happen. Yesterday I thought that things were getting a little better, but today I'm not so sure. I've spent most of the day fighting back tears, though I have no idea why I am crying.
I've done a little bit of studying, but not as much as I wanted to. The problem was that I was reading the words, sometimes several times, yet I had no idea what it meant. After about an hour of that I decided that it would be better not to bother, because I am going to have to go over it all again to make sure that I really do understand what I have read and to ensure that I have some reasonable notes for when it comes to time to revise for the exam.
I've also had a horrendous headache for much of the day, although it is now receding and I am hoping that it won't be too long before it has completely gone. I just hate having a headache, especially when it's one of those where every movement that you make just seems to send more pain shooting through your head.
There is, however, one possibly good bit of news. I have rung the hospital this afternoon, and it seems that I am definitely going to have a psychotherapy appointment this week. So, on Friday morning I will set off for the hospital and just hope that my mobile doesn't ring while I'm on the bus.