Friday, 3 October 2008

Sometimes I wish ...

... that I didn't have to put up with sleepless nights and then end up sleeping all day.

... that I could understand whether or not I was getting somewhere with the psychotherapy.

... that there was some magic cure that I could take so that I don't feel like this all the time.

... that there was someone who I could talk to when I feel like this.

... that I could stop crying for no apparent reason.

... that I could go to sleep and never wake up so that I don't have to live with this pain anymore.


cellar_door said...


Caroline said...

I'm sorry you feel so grim and I am sorry I don't have that magic cure to make things better for you. It's the human condition for some and I think maybe it is the price you pay for being "real" - for thinking deeply and really seeing, for not being an Epsilon - this too will pass my dear and the sun will always come up tomorrow

bippidee said...

chin up hon. it will pass eventually. as you said in your last post, it's a little early to start weighing up the year, but these darkening nights tend to make us reflective. treat yourself to something nice and try to get out in that sunlight whilst you can. and make a list of all the good things you've acheived this year, like this blog for one.

Mandy said...

Hallo MAG

Sometimes I wish I was diving head first into a giant chocolate fountain.

Okay, so it doesn't relate to what you wrote...but it is the counter side of the thoughts and feelings you wrote about..that I get.

And although I don't know you...I hope you get something positive from today..comfort from those who care about you and maybe even a little calm in your storm


Lemon said...


Just remember you won't always feel like this, and that there are people who care.

There and Back said...

I'd echo everything Lemon said.

Be kind to yourself, take one day at a time.

Anil P said...

The dilemma of life, no less.